Mother's Day

Today marks a very important day for me.  It's now an ever lasting precious reminder of the job I was given.  A job that is proving to be my hardest one yet.  A job that is one of the most rewarding too.  It's a reflection of everything you do wrong (how your children misbehave), yet everything you do right (when they are polite and sweet and think of others first).  

This day is so important to me.  It means that I am a Mom.  I always wanted to  be a wife and a mom.  When I was fearful that I may never be either I would pray to God and tell him I know in my heart I am supposed to be part of a family with children of my own.  I promised him I would be the best person I could be for my family. I don't always live up to that, but God knew I never would.  He gave me my family anyway.

When I would dream about my future it was always in short moments of what my family might be like.  A glimpse of smiles, the softest sound of laughter echoing, the quality time of enjoying each other. The best gift on this Mother's Day are watching my kids laugh and smile and seeing them grow. I don't need anything, but big hugs and love from those that think I'm doing an ok job. 

This is my Mom. I know being a Mom to her is her biggest gift and accomplishment. I know it was, is, and will always be her hardest job. I know she sometimes failed, but that no matter what happened, her intentions were always out of love. I know she dreamed about me, prayed, and wished she could be my Mom. I can only hope that I make her proud as a Mom today. 

The only thing I want to do on a day like Mother's day is to spend time with her and thank her.  To give her a big hug and say I thought she did, is, and will always be more than just ok. I owe a lot to her.  She taught me how to be a Mom. I love you Mom......

I also want to point out that I am praying for and thinking about all of those "Moms" out  there that don't have their children yet.  I am praying for those "Moms" who want more than anything to be a Mom, but for whatever reason your children are not here yet.  I know what that feels like and how fearful it feels. God gave most of us this intense desire to mother children....I pray he makes that happen soon.