Stuck

I am just so up in my head about the Newtown, CT tragedy.  I am trying to shake it all in the times that I'm with the kids or trying to get ready for school tomorrow, but in all honestly I'm failing.  I don't mean to be dramatic, but is it dramatic that I'm scared?  Scared about the world we live in.  Scared for our children and wondering if they will live safe and long lives because of so much random violence that happens in the "safest" of neighborhoods.  There was just a cop murdered in the town I work in, a gun found in the middle school in the district I work in, a school shooting almost ten year ago already again at my school district.  I'm scared to go to school.  I think horrible thoughts like my classroom is the closest to the front office.  The closest to the only unlocked door in the school.  Then I think about my students.  How are they going to feel tomorrow. How will I support them tomorrow if they bring up the shooting.  What can I do to help them through it.  I'm trying to put on a brave face, but in all honestly I've never felt anxious about going to school....until now.  I don't want this. The worst of it all and the most horrific thing that I cannot shake is the fear those children felt before their lives were taken and for the children who survived and will continue to live with their fear.  It's just wrong and pure evil.  I pray that our President can make some headway in making our country a safer place.  I don't care how many people I offend about right to bear arms crap......I just want our kids to be safe.  Can we at least get rid of the guns that people don't use for hunting at all. The ones that are here for "recreation or hobbies".  Pick a new flippin hobby your children are being murdered. I pray for our media and the violence children see.  Young minds are sooooo impressionable and especially children who struggle with mental illness the world is not always a true reality to them, but a virtual reality.  I guess right now all I can do is pray.  Pray that all children in the U.S. are safe tomorrow at school and pray that something happens so teachers, parents, and students across the country don't have to fear for their lives everyday.  I just HATE this. Sorry for the randomness and ranting.